Over the past 6 months we have been trying to get pregnant. We did the ovulation strips, worked out, lost weight, got more rest and on and on....
We did what we thought we needed to do. 

Well, my cycles were a disaster thanks to having my Mirena birth control removed. I was just so fed up with the issues. I was starting to wonder if we'd get pregnant or if maybe there was a problem with my husband. Hell I didn't even get a positive ovulation strip this month so I was convinced I was broken...

So, I scheduled an appointment with my OB/GYN to discuss our options for fertility testing. 

Well, last Thursday, I realized I was one day late...not a huge deal since I'd only had ONE 28 day normal cycle since coming off of BC 6 months ago. 
But, since I'm addicted to peeing on sticks I decided I'd go ahead. 

So, as the test is processing I start getting ready for work and kinda forget about it. I go to knock it into the garbage when I see :

I couldn't believe my eyes. It was faint but it was there. It wasn't stark white like all the other tests. So, I then went and took another:

I continued to be shocked and in disbelief so I took two more:

I've taken I think a total of 7 since the first one was positive.  lol


I'm still in shock that I'm 5 weeks pregnant with my third and FINAL baby!!!!!
We see the doctor on Sept 14th and it can't come fast enough. 

So, things have been somewhat interesting the past two weeks....


I've had what can only be described as a two week long panic attack. 
I don't want to get myself all worked up so I'm not going to go into too much detail but the short version of it is that my oldest daughter got head lice....I hate bugs....my world imploded. 


Obviously an annoying case of head lice shouldn't completely debilitate a normal person. And, the last time we dealt with it I was fine. But, this time....this time something in me snapped. 


I stopped eating. Can't be around anyone too closely for fear somehow it will spread or that we didn't really take care of it. Still can't fully believe everyone that has checked me ( two nurses among them) and said that I don't have it. 


Last Saturday, I wasn't able to get out of bed. I'd lost 6 lbs at that point (down a total of 10 in two weeks) and my husband said enough was enough and I was going to the ER because I needed fluids and something to calm me down. 
I got IV fluids and Ativan in my IV. 


We then went to the DR for a follow up. I had to make the decision to go back on daily medication even though we're TTC and I didn't want to take anything while pregnant. It was and still is a very difficult decision that had to be made.


So starts my new relationship with Zoloft.....it's only day two of it but it messes with my sleep patterns and makes me kinda jittery. I'm hoping that goes away soon. I'm also hoping I get some relief from all the anxiety and hopelessness feeling.


To sum it up...the past two weeks have been terrible. I'm ready to feel better again. I'm ready to enjoy my kids and husband. I'm just ready. 


Sorry for the rant of a post but I had to get it out somewhere. ...

Yeah it's really been 4 months....

I know I suck right??

I haven't done anything with this blog since we got married. I do apologize for that! While I'm on the topic of us getting married, here are a couple pictures of that!

It was all amazing!!!!

So, now that we're officially the old married couple ( lol ) we have started the process of trying for a baby. We already have my two daughters but he and I wanted to complete our family with one together.
It's been a bit of a roller coaster ride. I had to come off of my birth control (Mirena IUD) and get some clearance from the doctors since we had some issues. But, once that was all done I thought it would be all great with tons of sexy time.....
Yeah not so much. I mean it's great that we get to have the sexy time a lot but it's been difficult. My hormones have been insane...like insane and I haven't enjoyed this adjustment at all. I also stopped taking my anxiety meds on top of stopping my birth control and to top it off I'm taking a low dose blood pressure medicine....
I've been a ton of fun lately.
So, while stressing over my cycles being screwed up and just wanting to be pregnant, I've been doing the normal work and work and work.
I wish I could take another honeymoon, cause real life is exhausting lol

I've got nothing much going on right now other than enjoying being a Mrs. and a mommy and hoping for another little one to call me momma :)

I'm married!!!!!!

Well, I've pretty much sucked with keeping up and writing often. 


Things have been a blur the past 3 weeks or so. 


The wedding was perfectly imperfect! I mean, our DJ forgot to play "Here comes the bride"...yeah I'm not kidding. I forgot to put on my garter and my new husband and I had to go hide and throw it on before the reception. Ppl left before 9pm and we had a ton of alcohol left over. My dress strap broke on one side and I had to have him cut them off lol I had nice lopsided boobs but didn't care. My shawl wouldn't stay on so I tossed it to my sister as I walked to the alter. 
It was little non important things that I had stressed over that just didn't matter once I saw him standing there waiting for me. 
We flew out to Vegas at 5am the next morning and had an amazing week on our honeymoon!
It has all been amazing. I can't even explain. I'm still surprised when he calls me his wife and I catch myself calling him Fiance when he is now so much more. 
It's the same but not. It's hard to explain. I mean we still came back to the home we already had and went to the jobs we already had but not only did my last name change, I feel whole inside. I walk around with a comfort in my heart knowing that he will be with me until the day I die. 
I'll come back with a more in depth entry with some pictures in case anyone wants to see them once I have them . 


Thank you to those that have read my little blog and thank you to those that have offered messages of support. 
It was a long and stressful road but man was it worth it!

Week before..holy crap!

Yep, that's right 8 days from today and I will be getting married!


I simply can NOT wait. I am so very excited!
But, I'm mostly excited to have it over with lol 
I know, I know, it's such an amazing time and don't wish it away blah blah frickin blah....I'm tired of nonstop stress and just want to be married. 
That's all ,just want to be a married woman and be in Vegas on our honeymoon. 

Everything is coming together. I mean it's really all together. Just waiting on the day. 
I figured out my "Day of" schedule and timeline. That was a relief. Still trying to figure out who is staying at home and who has to find somewhere else to stay the night before since we aren't seeing each other until ceremony time after the rehearsal. That's the most stress we have. 


I'm considering ourselves pretty lucky and thank my wonderful weddingbee girls and all my friends for all their help and planning ideas. There is now way I would be done and just kinda hanging out without them. 


So, with that, I say

23 days and counting...

Yep, that's all the longer until I say my I DO's!!! 


I'm pretty pumped to say the least. Things have finally settled down and come together. 
This morning I went to Hobby Lobby before work ( could have stayed all day!) and got the bridesmaids gifts, cake topper, unity candle, tapper candles, purple flower petals and pretty gem stickers to decorate the boring white unity candle!! I was only in there for 15 minutes and found EVERYTHING I had been meaning to get!!

I feel very relieved and accomplished lol 


I also stopped by the post office before heading towards work and mailed off my bridal shower thank you's!  I think having them received within 2 weeks of my shower is good time!

I also picked up my dress last weekend and it looks amazing!! It had to be taken in 4 inches ( yay me) and we added straps at the last minute ( mommas got some biggens) and she made me a shawl that I love!!!

We are going to get our marriage license tomorrow morning before work so we can give it to the preacher this weekend when he have our little meeting with him to go over the ceremony and such. 

The travel agent called and said that all of our airline and hotel reservation papers are complete for the honeymoon so all we have to do is pick those up.

We ordered our cake this week.

I mean we have been wedding planning machines in the past couple weeks!!! I'm super proud of us! We are going to be able to just relax the closer we get to the day of the wedding and not have to freak out!! So, that's all I've got for now!!!!

Still so stressed sometimes...

Hello again...I'm not good about writing super often....

So, I am almost 2 months out from the wedding and I'm kinda going nuts with so much to still figure out. I have most of the invites done and just have to take a completed one to the post office to get weighed and then assemble them and send them out in 2 weeks. I have to finish the favors, get all the stuff for the guys bought/ordered and off my list, figure out all the songs for the DJ, and all kinds of other stuff I can't think of right now.

On top of that, my oldest daughter just started a new school yesterday (we moved at the beginning of summer) so I was so worried about how scared she would be and how she would get along since she's only in 2nd grade. But, luckily she has done wonderful! She said she loves it and couldn't wait to go back.

I'm still fighting with myself on my weightloss goals. I did really well and lost my 5% per Weight Watchers and then got lazy again lol I haven't really put anything back on but I can tell the difference in how I feel with what I'm eating. I'm way more bloated when I'm not paying attention to what I'm eating. So, I'm feeling like crap lately.

And then there is other stress here and there. But, all in all, it's nothing I can't handle just not too excited about much at the moment other then getting this wedding planning done so I can enjoy it!