Over the past 6 months we have been trying to get pregnant. We did the ovulation strips, worked out, lost weight, got more rest and on and on....
We did what we thought we needed to do. 

Well, my cycles were a disaster thanks to having my Mirena birth control removed. I was just so fed up with the issues. I was starting to wonder if we'd get pregnant or if maybe there was a problem with my husband. Hell I didn't even get a positive ovulation strip this month so I was convinced I was broken...

So, I scheduled an appointment with my OB/GYN to discuss our options for fertility testing. 

Well, last Thursday, I realized I was one day late...not a huge deal since I'd only had ONE 28 day normal cycle since coming off of BC 6 months ago. 
But, since I'm addicted to peeing on sticks I decided I'd go ahead. 

So, as the test is processing I start getting ready for work and kinda forget about it. I go to knock it into the garbage when I see :

I couldn't believe my eyes. It was faint but it was there. It wasn't stark white like all the other tests. So, I then went and took another:

I continued to be shocked and in disbelief so I took two more:

I've taken I think a total of 7 since the first one was positive.  lol


I'm still in shock that I'm 5 weeks pregnant with my third and FINAL baby!!!!!
We see the doctor on Sept 14th and it can't come fast enough. 

So, things have been somewhat interesting the past two weeks....


I've had what can only be described as a two week long panic attack. 
I don't want to get myself all worked up so I'm not going to go into too much detail but the short version of it is that my oldest daughter got head lice....I hate bugs....my world imploded. 


Obviously an annoying case of head lice shouldn't completely debilitate a normal person. And, the last time we dealt with it I was fine. But, this time....this time something in me snapped. 


I stopped eating. Can't be around anyone too closely for fear somehow it will spread or that we didn't really take care of it. Still can't fully believe everyone that has checked me ( two nurses among them) and said that I don't have it. 


Last Saturday, I wasn't able to get out of bed. I'd lost 6 lbs at that point (down a total of 10 in two weeks) and my husband said enough was enough and I was going to the ER because I needed fluids and something to calm me down. 
I got IV fluids and Ativan in my IV. 


We then went to the DR for a follow up. I had to make the decision to go back on daily medication even though we're TTC and I didn't want to take anything while pregnant. It was and still is a very difficult decision that had to be made.


So starts my new relationship with Zoloft.....it's only day two of it but it messes with my sleep patterns and makes me kinda jittery. I'm hoping that goes away soon. I'm also hoping I get some relief from all the anxiety and hopelessness feeling.


To sum it up...the past two weeks have been terrible. I'm ready to feel better again. I'm ready to enjoy my kids and husband. I'm just ready. 


Sorry for the rant of a post but I had to get it out somewhere. ...

Yeah it's really been 4 months....

I know I suck right??

I haven't done anything with this blog since we got married. I do apologize for that! While I'm on the topic of us getting married, here are a couple pictures of that!

It was all amazing!!!!

So, now that we're officially the old married couple ( lol ) we have started the process of trying for a baby. We already have my two daughters but he and I wanted to complete our family with one together.
It's been a bit of a roller coaster ride. I had to come off of my birth control (Mirena IUD) and get some clearance from the doctors since we had some issues. But, once that was all done I thought it would be all great with tons of sexy time.....
Yeah not so much. I mean it's great that we get to have the sexy time a lot but it's been difficult. My hormones have been insane...like insane and I haven't enjoyed this adjustment at all. I also stopped taking my anxiety meds on top of stopping my birth control and to top it off I'm taking a low dose blood pressure medicine....
I've been a ton of fun lately.
So, while stressing over my cycles being screwed up and just wanting to be pregnant, I've been doing the normal work and work and work.
I wish I could take another honeymoon, cause real life is exhausting lol

I've got nothing much going on right now other than enjoying being a Mrs. and a mommy and hoping for another little one to call me momma :)